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15 Saturday Dec 2012

Posted by amomentinmarch in Hope, Pregnancy, RAINBOW BABY

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Bed rest, intermittent absent blood flow

Every pregnancy comes with milestones; hearing the baby’s heart beat, the end of the first trimester, feeling the first kick and so on. I have been anxiously awaiting yet another milestone- twenty four weeks. Twenty four weeks hold a lot of significance for me. It is the point in pregnancy in which medical science has determined a baby can survive outside the womb. In high risk pregnancies, you will hear it referred to as V-day or the point of viability. But for me, it is also when I lost Ansley.

This pregnancy has not been an easy one for me. I haven’t enjoyed it the way most expecting mother do. I haven’t started working on the nursery or shopping for the babies. We haven’t picked out names, or talked about plans for the future. Chris and I decided early on once we hit 24 weeks, we would get started on planning for the babies. But the idea of planning and verbalizing hopes and dreams before that point was too scary.

Today, I am 24 weeks. This day comes a relief and a reminder. Each day from this point forward is a new day, one I didn’t experience in my pregnancy with Ansley. A painful, yet comforting thought all at the same time.

I know this pregnancy will have a better outcome. I have said all along they are watching me closely. Closely, took on a whole new meaning Wednesday evening. Twelve, Twelve, Twelve, the day I was put on hospital bed rest for the remainder of the pregnancy.

I will spend, what hopefully will be, a very long time in this hospital room. My current goal is 28 weeks, January 12th to be exact, but I am pulling for something closer to Valentine day. Christmas will be a little different this year, as will New Year’s, I will miss seeing my dog, sleeping in my bed, and enjoying the outside. But, in the grand scheme of things, all minor sacrifices in hopes of having 2 healthy baby boys.

The reason for the hospital bed rest is a little thing called intermittent absent diastolic blood flow. What that means is when my heart is pumping, baby is getting blood and when my heart is at rest (in-between beats) the blood should continue to flow through the umbilical cord to the baby. But, sometimes, for some reason, it cuts out for a second. While this sounds problematic, it really isn’t. I have a very minor case which isn’t affecting the baby in any way. But, with my history, my doctors decided it wasn’t worth taking the chance. HELLP syndrome is linked to a weak placenta and this condition is also linked to a weak placenta. In the event it gets worse, and turns into reverse blood flow, it could cause some distress to baby. The level of distress would determine if we would have to deliver, so that the baby could get the medial intervention needed. There is equally as likely of a chance that it will not get worse or it could possibly resolve all together. There are a lot of unknowns, so we are taking the better safe than sorry approach.

The other benefit to being in the hospital is the frequent testing for me. When I developed HELLP syndrome, it came on quickly and without normal symptoms. This time, should I start to develop Pre-Eclampsia or HELLP, we would know very early.

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Sunsets and Fire Rainbows

21 Thursday Jun 2012

Posted by amomentinmarch in Hope

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Fire Rainbow, Rainbow baby, rainbow clouds, sunsets

Since moving to our new house, I have remembered how much I love sunsets.  My apartment in college had a great sunset view as did my first apartment in the real world.  But, when Chris and I bought our first house a great sunset view was not on the must have list.  For 6 years, I forgot how magical sunsets are. 

Before putting an offer in on our new house, we drove by after work one evening in an attempt to make a final decision.  The timing was perfect, we realized we had a magnificent sunset view from the back porch.  We now spend many evenings sitting on the back porch, sipping wine and watching the sunset.

On Tuesday, we realized we were coming up on the summer solstice. We decided to celebrate the longest day of the year by taking the boat out after work.  It was a beautiful evening on the lake.  We stayed on the water to watch the sunset.  And as we were cutting across the lake to the dam, the best spot to watch the sunset, I spotted something in the clouds.

I was absolutely mesmerized by the sight.  I asked Chris, do you see what I see?  Just to the left of the setting sun there were a few clouds, but not just any clouds.  They were rainbow clouds.  I had never seen such a thing. I have since learned this phenomenon is called a ‘fire rainbow’ I grabbed my iPhone to try and snap a few pictures. The picture doesn’t do it any justice, so I found one on Google images with better resolution that captures what I was actually seeing. 

Rainbow Clouds over Lake Lanier

Rainbow in the clouds – image found on Google images

It wasn’t long ago that I wrote about Searching for my rainbow.  And here is a rainbow right in front of me, but not following a storm.  In fact, it is a much more rare sight than a traditional rainbow.

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