July 30, 2012 – It is official…. I am pregnant.
We got cleared from the doctor and decided we were ready to try again. Within the past month I must have seen a dozen rainbows which I took as a good sign. Each rainbow reassuring me that we were making the right choice to try for another baby.
I had planned to take a home pregnancy test on Saturday, but I just couldn’t wait, so Friday after work I went ahead and took the test. It was negative. Better luck next month. After all, there is only a 25% chance of getting pregnant even if the timing is right. The weekend came and went. Monday as I was getting ready for work, something urged me to take another test. The same negative line popped up rather quickly and as I was getting ready to throw it away I noticed another line starting to form. I stared at the test as the second line got darker and darker. I was speechless. I walked to the bed where Chris was still laying and handed him the test. Not really yet awake, he grumbled for a minute, realized what I handed him and I could tell had the same feelings I did. He got up, followed me back into the bathroom; he was not saying a word and neither was I. I was still trying to wrap my head around what I was feeling. This is what I had wanted- what we had both wanted! But, I was nervous, scared, and a little sad that I was not overjoyed like I was with Ansley and at the same time I was happy, very happy, but I wasn’t excited. I was on the verge of tears and I still can’t tell you if they were good tears or bad tears, when Chris finally said, “Guess we are good at the getting pregnant part”.
I took one more test for good measure and told Chris I would call the doctor and let her know. I knew she wanted to see me right away.
I drove to work as if it were just another day. I tried to process the news; I tried to force myself to be excited, but my mind kept racing back to Ansley, my last pregnancy, the only frame of reference I knew.
Xx love you and am here for you anytime. I’m over the moon for two just eager to hear everything along the way!! 🙂 praying and hoping, hoping and praying 😉 xx
I am so excited for you both. You know that you are forever in our thoughts and prayers and we will be sending LOTS of positive energy your way!
So excited for you and Chris! Wonderful news!